the end in mind

you know whats super strange? ever since i got here I've been thinking about the end. not the end of time. not a post apocalyptic future, but coming home. now this may not be that strange. "oh danny must be homesick" i mean miss certain things about home. i miss mom's mac and cheese, i miss the biggest thing to worry about was not driving on the lawn as i back out in the morning, i miss not feeling sun burned, i miss the luxury of a coke and cheese burger, i miss Steve waking me up on Sabbath morning to drums, i miss chris coming over randomly, but i'm not dying over here, i'm just gone for a few months.
 but i have this strange idea that i wanna come back as a missionary. i mean obviously i will but i mean i wanna come back with crazy hair, scraggly beard, machete strapped to my back, so tan that i could be a different nationality, maybe not bigger muscles but definitely more toned. i kinda want to come back looking like life tried to beat the crap out of me but i won. maybe a couple scares, some strange pieces of advice. the thing is i don't know why i'm worrying about this. why am i? lol i mean i have this really we're idea, and pictures thought that i will come off this small old rickety plane, look like crocodile dundee with one of my old shirts but that has tears, mends, and faded colors, and i will be not a hero, but someone who came out on the other end.

the funny thing is, is i'm not going to come back like that. i mean my shirts may be a little worn out, and my hair a little over grown, and maybe ill speak a little differently and have some strange stories but that idea prolly wont come true. but you know what idea will come true? the idea that i am going to stay home as long as i possibly can! WHO NEEDS TO COOK FOR THEMSELVES! who needs this whole "im gonna buy my own groceries"??? not this guy, i was originally planning on spending one year living at home after college, mom and dad, get used to 15 years, cause i may be 40 before i ever move out. might even have my wife and kids in my bed room, who needs my own place!

lol what ever i'm just joking



















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